Unbearable Agony: A Personal Struggle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary weekday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden pain sprang behind my right eye. Then came quick jolts, reminiscent of electric shocks. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown agony in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort around one eye that persists up to three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks typically start with abrupt, excruciating agony around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across history. “The first description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records propose bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the condition note this.

In 1998, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her pain. She believes the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack passed.

National guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some people.

But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined treatment process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Brief cycles with occasional episodes are managed with abortive therapy only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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Matthew Ramirez
Matthew Ramirez

A wellness coach and writer passionate about holistic health and mindful living, sharing evidence-based tips for everyday balance.